14 more mths
May 24th, 2009IT had been 2 months since i last writen smth here…. and 10 mths since i enlisted.
seriously speaking… i cant wait to get out of this place…. this costume… this life…
one by one i see ppl ORD… buying goodies for ppl hu are left over at this cursed place… and smiling… as they leave the place… yet continuing to give me troubles… like thier license and clearance… leaves, offs etc..
everytime i get F-ed for not giving or providing enough welfare to my drivers… never think of thier fatigue etc… i get very very very pissed…
its like HA! they get offs and leaves and priviledge just by driving… and slacking off… the only thing they do is wasting time… waiting for the users to finish thier job… WHILE i m sitting the the F-ing office fighting for them and make sure everything works well every single minute.
They duty the next day off… i duty.. the next day i work till 10pm.. WHATS off? WHATS WELFARE? its like giving others money… when i dun even have it myself…
the sir f-ed me.. saying that wat driver tired… driver complaining… my sir is afraid that my driver play MC, act sick.. keng all these… and wants me to provide welfare…
but hey cmon la… WHERE IS MINE?! i had been slogging for the past few mths… not even complaining a single word.. juz kept quiet and work.. work work and work.. all i get is scolding., words of threaten…
ppl complain going home at 6pm.. but i m going home at 10pm.. AM I COMPLAINING?! DID I EVEN UTTER A SINGLE WORD?! NO! i didnt! and here i get f-ed coz they go home at 6 pm! KNN
if u wanna put it in a diff light… yes.. i m consisdered fortunate as i m in a stay out unit… not booking in on sunday night… and stay in the place for 6 days a week… BUT still this place is really getting on my nerves…
maybe juz as how i cursed at the drivers for being pampered… maybe i myself is also pampered…
but its juz very irritating how much the drivers are taken care of… and yet. i m being so poorly treated…
maybe i shld be a driver instead… no.. maybe a driver shld sit on my desk… and tryout my job… then they will appriciate how much… i had done for them…
i admit that i m not the best… but u cant deny that.. i had been trying hard…
14 more mths… tahan.
Y uses judgment to make decisions. He is ruled by his head, not his heart. He is a cool, collected person who is usually unexpressive emotionally. Some may see him as unemotional. He does have emotions but has no need to express them. He is withdrawn into himself and enjoys being alone.
People that write their letters in an average height and average size are moderate in their ability to interact socially. According to the data input, Y doesn’t write too large or too small, indicating a balanced ability to be social and interact with others.
Y is secretive. He has secrets which he does not wish to share with others. He intentionally conceals things about himself. He has a private side that he intends to keep that way, especially concerning certain events in his past.
Y can be defiant. He sometimes has the attitude that if someone doesn’t like it the way he is doing it, then they can just “go to hell!” This trait may reveal itself in a rebellious nature that is always ready to resist forces which he thinks are infringing upon his freedom of action.
In reference to Y’s mental abilities, he has a very investigating and creating mind. He investigates projects rapidly because he is curious about many things. He gets involved in many projects that seem good at the beginning, but he soon must slow down and look at all the angles. He probably gets too many things going at once. When Y slows down, then he becomes more creative than before. Since it takes time to be creative, he must slow down to do it. He then decides what projects he has time to finish. Thus he finishes at a slower pace than when he started the project.
Y’s true self-image is unreasonably low. Someone once told Y that he wasn’t a great and beautiful person, and he believed them. Y also has a fear that he might fail if he takes large risks. Therefore he resists setting his goals too high, risking failure. He doesn’t have the internal confidence that frees him to take risks and chance failure. Y is capable of accomplishing much more than he is presently achieving. All this relates to his self-esteem. Y’s self-concept is artificially low. Y will stay in a bad situation much too long… why? Because he is afraid that if he makes a change, it might get worse. It is hard for Y to plan too far into the future. He kind of takes things on a day to day basis. He may tell you his dreams but he is living in today, with a fear of making a change. No matter how loud he speaks, look at his actions. This is perhaps the biggest single barrier to happiness people not believing in and loving themselves. Y is an example of someone living with a low self-image, because their innate self-confidence was broken.
Y is sarcastic. This is a defense mechanism designed to protect his ego when he feels hurt. He pokes people harder than he gets poked. These sarcastic remarks can be very funny. They can also be harsh, bitter, and caustic at the same time.
Something is incomplete in Y’s life. He feels frustration relating to his physical needs and desires. Somewhere in his life there is some disappointment, non-fulfillment, and interruption. This is very likely to relate to Y’s sexual needs.
For a graphologist, the spacing on the page reflects the writer’s attitude toward their own world and relationship to things in his or her own space. If the inputted data was correct Y has no white space or margins on a typical sheet of paper. Y fills up every last inch on the top, right, left, and bottom. Hmmm. If this is true, then Y has a very aggressive personality toward others and quite frankly lacks a bit of respect for the space and property of other people. I would be surprised if Y just comes into someone’s home and helps himself to a drink in the refrigerator. This can be both an obnoxious personality trait and it can be assertive and effective in getting what you want. There isn’t much fear of getting in trouble here, Y finds plenty of reasons to break the rules and get in trouble. (Okay, perhaps when he was younger, not anymore?) Basically, people with no margins are a handful.
